Carpathia ...

Is there such a thing as a clean escape? For me at least? I'm trying to find ways to rid myself of guilt, of hiding in the shadows. I may never reach Carpathia in time. FOr when the time comes I indeed get my hyped-up arguably deserved means to get where my heart told me to go, I may not want to proceed anymore. If it was meant to be mine, I feel it should've come much sooner. I understand the value of working for something to appreciate reaping the benefits, and I understand the concept of compounded interest like it was a simple and logical postulate for delayed gratification.

My patience has run thin but I discover it's ductility. It becomes pointless to separate all the strands when you're tieing up a noose for yourself.